The one thing that has always attracted me to cities is the anonymity that you can enjoy, surrounded by thousands of people, and no one knows you. I felt this tonight coming home, crammed into the subway, and I just stood there looking around, totally aware of my surroundings and everyone around me, and everyone totally oblvious to me. And I was swept along by the people getting off at my stop, and carrried down the stairs and then we all trickled off through the exits into the night.
And I came home to my dog, who greeted me at the door with a big smile. Yes, he does smile. Sue is staying on the Cape tonight with her mom. And I came home to this quiet peaceful place, the beginning of a home for me, one that has so much potential for peace and happiness and joy. And I'm here alone, making a favorite dinner, and music is playing, and later I'll pick up a guitar. I'll turn the lights low, and maybe light some candles, and pour a drink, and eventually I'll go to bed and read before falling to sleep. Not a lot, huh? All alone in this big world, in this big apartment. Alone, maybe, but not lonely. And that's all the difference. For years I was lonely. And now I'm not.
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